While I love the warm weather and being with the kids outside, I find myself ever-more self conscious of the hairless Laurie that is walking around these days. I just want to cover everything up on myself from head to toe, but I know I will ROAST if that is the case between the sweltering heat and the majorly menopausal woman I am becoming. (or should I say "mental-pausal") Both would be true. The steroids have added an extra squareness to my already round chipmunk cheeks. So now I look like Sponge Bob instead of Alvin. Both cute characters I might add though. My arms are really needing a work-out too....you would think lifting my 26 lb daughter might help that out, but it doesn't really. So my resistance bands gathering dust in the closet are going to have to see the light of day here pretty soon or I won't be able to stand myself. I also have one of those medicine balls. It was a fun new toy when I got it but now it's more of a torturing device....but it does work. I also have one of those Shake Weights. It does not work very well and I am afraid I would shake my new boobies right off my chest with that....so that will be going on a shelf to gather its own dust. I just have to find motivation which I am lacking these days.
I must admit I have been depressed lately. It feels like this process is never ending and I just started!! I think it's the looming chemo this week. I am glad it will be the third one and that I will be 3/4 of the way through the most brutal part of the treatment. Then I only have the 12 weeks of Taxol to deal with....and my bald head and my flabby arms. No feeling sorry for me though....I will get through it and will be back to the old Laurie bigger (well hopefully not bigger) and better than ever!!
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